The End

Finally, I realize that I'm no longer of any significance to you. You wouldn't care about me like you did before anymore. Things changed and it's time for me to realize that and stop fantasizing. Time to move on.

Signing off,
Andrew Neoh

Aftermath of exam

After-exam days are supposed to be happy and enjoyable. Despite the fun I had with my bunch of friends, I was invaded with deep sorrow. One of my beloved had been kidnapped and yet to report herself after 36 hours. Provisional diagnosis, she should be dead by now. I just got to know her for less than half a year. She was my best friend ever since we met. Unlike everyone else, she doesn't fail my at all, despite all my rants and grumbles, she'll listen to me patiently. During study break and exam period, she's the one who accompany me till deep nights, and entertain me whenever I feel stressed and emotional. Now I'm feeling empty, physically and mentally. Physically, I cannot touch her anymore; Mentally, I lost my emotional support. But I hope she's in good hands now. Still have a small ray of hope that she'll come back to me in one piece. Rest in Peace, my G705. I love yOu!

Signing off,
Andrew Neoh

Drama

Life is exactly like a drama act. It requires characters, be it antagonists, protagonists, or insignificant ones. Some people can always be the antagonists who goes around destroying and messing up people's life; But some can only choose to be either the protagonists who goes around trying to make people's life better, or insignificant ones who choose to save themselves only. I've always been the protagonist, but more to insignificant protagonist. Trying to cheer people up, helping them in time of need, but rarely receive recognition. I've been silent all these while, but sometimes I do want to be the main protagonist. I want to be the centre of attention, be it my life or in front of everyone. Sad to say, I don't see the possibility of this dream coming true. It might, but it's still an unfulfilled dream.

Signing off,
Andrew Neoh

Phrase of the Day

"It takes one to grumble, two to gossip, three to confirm, four and five to conclude."

-Andrew Neoh, 13 November 2009-

Signing out,
Andrew Neoh

Fuuuuyooohhhh~~~

Well I'm not exactly supposed to blog right now. Theoratically I should be studying, practically I should be sleeping, but in reality I'm waiting my turn to blast the toilet. =P Faham faham lar... Today's paper was a total bull crap filled with mixture from pig and chicken and etc etc. I think I fucked it up already. But weirdly, my respond was a bit cuckoo-ed compared to previous semesters. As theory states, I'm supposed to run home, holding my tears, reach home, run into the room, lock the door, and cry like as if I just got my balls removed... LOL!! I laughed.. like a mad person! LOL! hahahaha.. And I'm sitting here blogging summore.. Something's not right. But I don't care. I did my best. I tried. Now it's not my control anymore. Just leave it and go on with the next lar! Till Monday! I'm gonna write and blog like no one's business EVERY SINGLE DAY!

Signing out,
Andrew Neoh

The Time has Come

Ok this is it people! One week of pure cruelty to our minds and bodies, and it's over! All the best to everyone taking the EOS Semester 3!!!! We all can do it!!!

Sigh-ning out,
Andrew Neoh

Extreme

Finally the extress stress of examination decides to hit me 3 days before the first paper. I'm feeling tired and stressed. At the verge of giving up. I need a shoulder to lean of, firm arms wrapped around me comforting me. But it's just a wish that's yet to come true. I'm still stuck to face this condition alone.

Signing off,
Andrew Neoh

I Want to Know What Love Is

I almost cried towards the end of this song. It really describes my feelings for the past few months, what I had been going through and emotional about. Many at times I thought that seeing so many couples around me I really understood what love is, but the fact is things are different when you're actually in a relationship. A lot of things are being considered, commitment, responsibility, tolerance, understanding and many more. And well the most important would be nonetheless trust between each another. At certain points maybe we'll feel tired and want to give up, but is it worth it? That we've already walk this far to fix the loneliness, and yet we're choosing to restart the whole journey again? And also those who are thinking of embracing a new journey, are you really equipped and fully prepared? Prepare to take on the challenges of being attached together with your partner? Long story short, Mariah Carey - I Want to Know What Love Is live on Ellen Degeneres Show:



I've gotta take a little time.
A little time to think things over,
I better read between the lines.
In case I need it when I'm colder

In my life there's been heartache and pain,
I don't know if I can face it again,
can't stop now,
I've traveled so far to change this lonely life...

CHORUS:
I wanna know what love is!
I want you to show me!
I wanna feel what love is!
I know you can show me!

Gonna take a little time. (take a little time)
A little time to look around me,
I've got nowhere left to hide. (nowhere left to hide)
It looks like love has finally found me..

In my life there's been heartache and pain,
I don't know if I can face it again,
I can't stop now,
I've traveled so far to change this lonely life...


Signing out
Andrew Neoh

New Blog, Same Andrew

In the midst of studying the cursed Drug Metabolism, I suddenly have the urge to restart my public blog. It's been more than a year since I closed down and privatized my previous blog andrewneoh.blogspot.com, and well it will still be privatized so that I get to voice out some secret dissatisfactions without people knowing about them. =P.

To start a blog at this point of time, it's actually doesn't make any sense. Firstly I should be actually studying my ass off as End of Semester 3 Examination is just 6 days away. Secondly, no one would give a damn to read as everyone would probably be working hard. But the fact is I don't have the mood to study right now. Drug metabolism is the subject that I hated most, and in the mean time feared most. Academic matter aside, I need some place for me to pen down my emotions and feelings.

Things hasn't been going well recently. I've basically gone through hell lot of things throughout the recent months. Ranging from studies, relationships, life etc, I had experienced the sweet and sour part of everything. Studies, I'm going through the hardest part of it preparing for E.O.S. while awaiting for the arrival of sweet holidays! Ah, I miss holidays where I can leave those stacks of notes behind and just enjoy it. This year my batch mates didn't really had much plans for holidays except short visits to Penang, Ipoh, Melaka etc. Mom and Dad and Bro are going for a vacation in Hokkaido, Japan, leaving the poor me home to guard the fortress, while Sis will be going to Beijing, China. Well thanks to Calvin, I'm actually going for a trip too! Too bad Bangkok was banned by my family, we might now be only visiting Singapore this year, or if his budget allows, Hong Kong! Am so looking forward for the trip!

Relationship wise, many had yet to know but I've been in and out of love. Well I'm not gonna elaborate on that and don't ask me for details! I'm still recovering from the "out" part and that contributes to the sour portion of relationships. I should say relationships aren't as easy as what I expect and in the process, I really learned a lot to be independent and wiser. One sentence wrapping it off, never fully trust a person until he/she proves himself/herself worthy to be trusted! Relationship with family? Oh well, we're still the same, fighting all the time but in the end we're still one small happy family! Fights had been the one thing that helps improve our bonds, weird huh! And not to forget about friends, I do have a great bunch of friends who's supportive and crazy (that's the word I can think of at this hour). And well the closest of all would be obviously Jason, Sharon, Mei, Biao & Miao, Lepet and PetPet~ Also not to forget my awesomest housemates YongJing & HweiWhei & CY, and my craziest biatch Calvin. Well I should say these are the best things that had happened to me in this half a year, which keeps me going and not giving up. Well not to forget some incidents that had me realize some hidden characteristics and attitudes of certain people which sent chills down my spine. But again, if they don't deserve my trust and care, why would I even give a damn?

And lastly as many would realize and notice, I had a lot of emotional breakdowns this half a year. Well I should say I didn't really have a good semester with all the things happening around which I mentioned above, but things are gonna change. Sometimes there are different angles of viewing things, and if I kept being ignorant and view things only at an angle, I'm definitely gonna walk on living hell. So why not just take things easy, be more optimistic, and live our life to the fullest! Well, currently that's the plans for my future: not gonna be that emotional! =D

Gawd it's getting real real real real late. It's 5.20 am already and I guess I really need to sleep otherwise I'd wake up like tomorrow evening. Till the next post, take care!

Signing out,
Andrew Neoh