Weather

It had been 3 weeks since EOS4 examination's results are released. I wouldn't say I did very well, but I'm considered happy with my own results. At least I've done my very best. And pretty amazed over some achievements too! =D

Oh well, back in Penang the weather had been pretty unexpected. Blazing hot sun and duper stuffy weather in the morning, thunder storm slightly after noon, stuffy again during evening, and drizzle at night. I think we should put the blame on people who keeps polluting the environment till the point where nature is exhibiting its wrath on human kind. Nature conservationist talking. But what I can't stand most is that people misuse technology for their own purpose - i.e. modify their electric meter resulting in lesser electric usage. Damn irresponsible.

After watching Prince of Persia with Kelveen, I headed home and outta randomness, I changed course to Jusco Aeon City and got myself some ice cream. 31st so I get 31% off. I thought ice cream and chocolate can help me with soothing my mind and make me high. But in the end, I got the side effect of ice cream, depression and sadness. Sigh... I don't even know what's wrong with me. Sigh.

Signing off
Andrew Neoh

Truth being an Adult

If you’ve read the previous post, you might realize that I’m on a voluntary hospital attachment for 3 days. Few lessons learnt along the way, hard and soft ways.

Hard way:

1. Never loose your smile and patience in front of the superiors.
2. Never complain like a baby.
3. Never try to be smartie-pants when you don’t even have the idea of how things run.
4. Try to understand that people might be under tremendous amount of stress and they deserve to be bad-tempered

The soft ways we learnt thing would be that we’ve met a nice pharmacist who is willing to bring us around during grand ward rounds. We’ve benefit a lot from the rounds about our roles as pharmacists in the healthcare plan, and something discovery that I found is that perhaps doctors aren’t that mean and bossy after all. The specialist that was the boss of the ward round appears to be quite nice and polite to all the staffs (well except for some MOs), which busts a lot of myths that doctors are super duper mean to pharmacists.

Despite some lousy treatments, I could say that the visit was quite an eye opener for the life that we’re gonna face in the future.

Outpatient pharmacy – VERY busy and hectic;

Inpatient pharmacist – more relaxed and slower pace;

Ward pharmacist – tiring but satisfying.

The words simply summarizes the things that we’ve seen in the short duration of 2 days, but I say for sure that this career that I’ve chosen 4 years back wasn’t the easiest job in the medical field. It requires commitment, interest, and hard work in order to succumb to the pressure and rise as a leader. It’s still a long way to go, 2 more years to graduate. Currently, I should be more worried about the semester 4 results which will be released tomorrow. Oh crap, I’m having shortness of breath and panic attack. Fark.

Signing off,

Andrew Neoh

Tranquillity and Serenity

First week of the 6 weeks holidays, and I'm quite out of plans for myself. For the past week, life had always been about sleeping and slugging around doing basically nothing. But I kinda like this feeling, the sense of freedom and nothing to worry about. Everyday I’d wake up only when I want to, I don’t need to know what time is it as I don’t have any restrictions on how I splurge my time. But apart from all these freedom, I felt that I should make good use of this time and do something interesting instead. So, I arranged for hospital attachment which will only start tomorrow due to last minute arrangement. The attachment will last until Friday. Shit mentioning Friday, it’s results day. Sighss… Wonder how did I do this time, oh well but until then only start worrying la… Anyway gonna stop writing already, there are matters that I need to attend to ngek ngek ngek.. Till then.

Regards

Andrew

Stationary

Lecturers keep telling us, apply what you've learned. We learned about enzyme inactivation if too frequently stimulated and inhibition if too much of the substrate. That's what they've taught us, and application is merely bullshit. We humans are also like enzyme, we "catalyze" every "substrate" coming at us, we try to digest all the notes and understand everything, but yet, we cannot get inactivated even if everything is too high. There's no pathway for temporary inactivation; either do, or being eliminated. That's how sucky life is. Being in this position, I try to be positive every single day, try to make my life better by hypnotizing myself that everything is gonna end soon. True, but the ending will be followed with another beginning.

I think I gotta thank everyone who supported me through all this week. Most importantly my mom and sis. I think I'd probably would've already jumped down the balcony of my house long time ago. Family to me, they're the most important. They'd love you no matter what the circumstances is; they'll support you in everything and give their truthful advices and critics. Shits now I'm in extreme homesickness. It had been almost 3 weeks, going to 4 that I've trapped myself facing the four walls and stack of notes in front of me. I need a breath of air. I need to relax, I need to cool down.

4 more papers, 6 more days, approximately 144 hours to freedom. This is the time when I wish I'm Hiro Nakamura - I can go through time and space.

Signing off,
Andrew Neoh

When days become weeks and months.

Three days since the starting of exam, three papers down, but yet, three days feels like three weeks. Time is actually crawling slowly, which is good for us; We need more time to finish off last minute revision. On the other hand, slower movement means longer suffering, and longer worries. I felt being hung on the tree in olden times, with my legs unable to touch the ground. And scarily, no one is there to cut the rope for me. Sigh. I need some time to breath, I need some time to calm down, to gather myself some strength to carry on the journey. 7 more days to go. But the coming 2 days will be hell for me. Not that I've not finished studying, but that there's too much things to remember, and too much things that I've got no friggin' idea why am I studying. I feel like I'm no longer studying because I want to know or the thing raise up my interest, but having to memorize a lot of things without fully understanding the rationale behind everything. Exam is no longer testing our understanding, it's testing our memory space and how good are we in remembering things last minute. I hate this kind of system, but yet I'm trapped in this kind of system. Here goes studying for another subject which I got no interests in, and not related to my future. Most importantly, not taught by any pharmacists. Bullshit.

Signing off,
Andrew Neoh